Today evening i was driving back home. It was 6:30 PM. I stopped at a major signal. Heard a loud sound and for a moment i thought some bomb went off. Such thought would have ran through each ones mind who was present there. But that was the sound of a cracker which busted in air. Its scary now a days. The recent blasts all over India made life difficult. You never know the whether you will be able to reach home in one piece.
I hope the government comes up with some strict law against these acts.
To be frank I am scared to go out during evening. I take all the precaution when I am at a public place. I check the surrounding where am standing. I look at every person's activity, whether someone is leaving any bag or any luggage behind him or not. Life has become so difficult.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
God's Trilogy - Part II
Part II is coming after a long time. But let me complete this trilogy.
People get shocked when I tell them I am an atheist. They really get surprised and ask me "why don't I believe in God?". I always give short and sweet answer "I never felt like believing in God". The next obvious question is, "so whom you believe in?". And when i reply, "i believe in myself". The next person starts thinking. But again goes back to the same old story of some super power who controls this universe and all that.
I believe in Karma, whatever you do will return you something. If you do something good for others and with a selfless heart then you will always get good results. If you don't then you will get the bad result. So I always think of doing good for me and for others as well. But people have customized Karma based on Religion. Every Religion has its customized definition of the same thing. When we say God is one then why so many Religion? Why so many beliefs?
People get shocked when I tell them I am an atheist. They really get surprised and ask me "why don't I believe in God?". I always give short and sweet answer "I never felt like believing in God". The next obvious question is, "so whom you believe in?". And when i reply, "i believe in myself". The next person starts thinking. But again goes back to the same old story of some super power who controls this universe and all that.
I believe in Karma, whatever you do will return you something. If you do something good for others and with a selfless heart then you will always get good results. If you don't then you will get the bad result. So I always think of doing good for me and for others as well. But people have customized Karma based on Religion. Every Religion has its customized definition of the same thing. When we say God is one then why so many Religion? Why so many beliefs?
Friday, May 30, 2008
hard times ...
I grew up in an environment where nothing bad happened to me or i never went through any pain in last 24 years. But suddenly last 6 months weren't so. I had been in the the toughest times of my life till now. I don't want to crib on anything as I am the most positive person around. It took me sometime to adjust to the reality and face the present situation.
Its really difficult, mentally, when you are alone and you feel no one understands you. Its the hardest time. I felt like breaking down so many times but. The mind works in a strange way, the same things goes on and on in your mind all the time. One need to be strong enough to control the mind.
For me, i couldn't control my mind, but it became better with time. As the time went by i gained a lot of confidence in myself and now even though the situation is same, I am standing up to it.
I lost some valuable time in all this. I lost so many opportunities in my professional life. My career took a back-stage for last 6 months. I do regret loosing those moments but this hard time teaches you a lot. A lot that books don't teach you. One has to be flexible at times and i guess i am the perfect example. :)
Life is all about reacting to situations. I wish I will do better in future.
No one knows the future, but you can control it. Believe yourself and have confidence in you.
Its really difficult, mentally, when you are alone and you feel no one understands you. Its the hardest time. I felt like breaking down so many times but. The mind works in a strange way, the same things goes on and on in your mind all the time. One need to be strong enough to control the mind.
For me, i couldn't control my mind, but it became better with time. As the time went by i gained a lot of confidence in myself and now even though the situation is same, I am standing up to it.
I lost some valuable time in all this. I lost so many opportunities in my professional life. My career took a back-stage for last 6 months. I do regret loosing those moments but this hard time teaches you a lot. A lot that books don't teach you. One has to be flexible at times and i guess i am the perfect example. :)
Life is all about reacting to situations. I wish I will do better in future.
No one knows the future, but you can control it. Believe yourself and have confidence in you.
IPL - crazzy kiya re ...
For me, IPL, is one of the biggest event happened in India after 1947.
Indian Premier League undoubtedly is at the top of TRP ratings in India.
The best part is IPL is not limited to Cricket though the event is designed for Cricket. Having highest TRP tell you that its pure Entertainment package. People gather in front of TV sets to watch the match religiously. Everyone in the family is involved and its a good sign as far as family bonding is concerned. The other option for watching the match is to go to the live action. But nothing better than TV set.
People are watching, talking and analyzing cricket everyday. I go to office and over lunch we discuss IPL. And i believe most of us do the same.
Money was always there in Cricket but IPL made it easy for all. Right from players, franchises, tv channels, media, commentary team, groundsmen, cheer-leaders to state cricket associations, everyone is making money. Its good that players are making lot of money. I guess few years down the line Cricket stars will earn a lot. And why not? When football has so much money then why not Cricket. Zidane's transfer to Real Madrid was 46 million $. There are talks about Messy being going to Chelsea for 80 million $ and how can you forget Beckham going to LA Galaxy for 128 million $. I guess one day even cricket players will touch that mark.
There is lot more to come like betting, club owners owning a cricket stadium, golden bat award, golden ball award, Champions league - where top 4 teams from every country will play.
Only bad thing about IPL is its only for 2 months or so. What will people do after that? Will they watch test and one day cricket with the same respect as they used to watch earlier. Will the regular cricket rivalry stop and new regime will be established? Do ICC see a threat?
I know all these questions are difficult to answer at the moment but the fun beings !
I am not a big fan of Cricket but IPL is certainly big bang in Cricket. At least let me respect Cricket for the People, for the entertainment, for the money its bringing and for the true talent its showcasing.
Indian Premier League undoubtedly is at the top of TRP ratings in India.
The best part is IPL is not limited to Cricket though the event is designed for Cricket. Having highest TRP tell you that its pure Entertainment package. People gather in front of TV sets to watch the match religiously. Everyone in the family is involved and its a good sign as far as family bonding is concerned. The other option for watching the match is to go to the live action. But nothing better than TV set.
People are watching, talking and analyzing cricket everyday. I go to office and over lunch we discuss IPL. And i believe most of us do the same.
Money was always there in Cricket but IPL made it easy for all. Right from players, franchises, tv channels, media, commentary team, groundsmen, cheer-leaders to state cricket associations, everyone is making money. Its good that players are making lot of money. I guess few years down the line Cricket stars will earn a lot. And why not? When football has so much money then why not Cricket. Zidane's transfer to Real Madrid was 46 million $. There are talks about Messy being going to Chelsea for 80 million $ and how can you forget Beckham going to LA Galaxy for 128 million $. I guess one day even cricket players will touch that mark.
There is lot more to come like betting, club owners owning a cricket stadium, golden bat award, golden ball award, Champions league - where top 4 teams from every country will play.
Only bad thing about IPL is its only for 2 months or so. What will people do after that? Will they watch test and one day cricket with the same respect as they used to watch earlier. Will the regular cricket rivalry stop and new regime will be established? Do ICC see a threat?
I know all these questions are difficult to answer at the moment but the fun beings !
I am not a big fan of Cricket but IPL is certainly big bang in Cricket. At least let me respect Cricket for the People, for the entertainment, for the money its bringing and for the true talent its showcasing.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Book Review - The 3 Mistakes of My Life
3 mistakes is Chetan Bhagat's next book.
The way book is written, I feel Chetan is trying to be the next Bollywood writer.
The story starts with 3 middle class young friends settled in Gujrat. Being middle class, they all have dreams which every other young Indian have. Everyone wants to earn money and live happily. Chetan has penned everyday life of a general Indian man, which is very close to the reality except for few incidents.
Chetan targeted the big things Politics, Religion and Cricket. Those are the major topics of discussion in India. And very smartly he kept discussion on Cricket very limited, which i appreciate a lot. Because people ion general love to talk about cricket, love to read cricket only in newspaper but do not like to read cricket in Novel. And Chetan has done this job smartly.
Politics was another area which is shown exactly how it is without exaggerating it too much. He tried to strike the balance of his political stands. He showed Ish and Gopal were little interested in Politics while Omi was involved too much because of his family background.
Religion is also nicely crafted in the book. It depicts the exact picture of People's ideology regarding Religion. I liked the way he showed people turning from agnostic to believing in presence of God was amazing.
Also he connected the real life incidents like Bhuj Earthquake and Godhra incident was also remarkable.
Love was another aspect which I think he should have done better.
Overall the book is good, from Indian readers point of view, its really great.
I guess Internationally the book is average as the story is monotonous and easily predictable.
Overall I would rate this book 6.5 on the scale of 1 to 10 where 10 being the highest.
The way book is written, I feel Chetan is trying to be the next Bollywood writer.
The story starts with 3 middle class young friends settled in Gujrat. Being middle class, they all have dreams which every other young Indian have. Everyone wants to earn money and live happily. Chetan has penned everyday life of a general Indian man, which is very close to the reality except for few incidents.
Chetan targeted the big things Politics, Religion and Cricket. Those are the major topics of discussion in India. And very smartly he kept discussion on Cricket very limited, which i appreciate a lot. Because people ion general love to talk about cricket, love to read cricket only in newspaper but do not like to read cricket in Novel. And Chetan has done this job smartly.
Politics was another area which is shown exactly how it is without exaggerating it too much. He tried to strike the balance of his political stands. He showed Ish and Gopal were little interested in Politics while Omi was involved too much because of his family background.
Religion is also nicely crafted in the book. It depicts the exact picture of People's ideology regarding Religion. I liked the way he showed people turning from agnostic to believing in presence of God was amazing.
Also he connected the real life incidents like Bhuj Earthquake and Godhra incident was also remarkable.
Love was another aspect which I think he should have done better.
Overall the book is good, from Indian readers point of view, its really great.
I guess Internationally the book is average as the story is monotonous and easily predictable.
Overall I would rate this book 6.5 on the scale of 1 to 10 where 10 being the highest.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
All about Love !
A small story :
A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat
field and choose the biggest wheat and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back
to pick."
The student went to the field, go through first row, he saw one big wheat,
but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger
one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he starts to
realise that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he
knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher
told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for better ones, but
when later you realise, you have already missed the person.
Now, I wonder, how does this fiction applicable to us in real life?
At least whatever little experience i have i can tell that, you make a move when you feel that you found a right person.
For girls, the goal is simple, they want a guy who can take care of them properly and give them a lot of attention. He should be caring, loving, adorable and should earn well.
Guys, on the other hand, have fewer but tricky requirements. They want good looking, smart, with highest understanding quotient, caring, loving and obey his orders kind of girl.
Hence finding love is not so simple. Most difficult is finding the right person, who gives as much love to you, as you give it him/her.
Friendly Advice : Don't judge a book by its cover. Take some time and then judge the person.
Comments Welcome.
A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat
field and choose the biggest wheat and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back
to pick."
The student went to the field, go through first row, he saw one big wheat,
but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger
one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he starts to
realise that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he
knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher
told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for better ones, but
when later you realise, you have already missed the person.
Now, I wonder, how does this fiction applicable to us in real life?
At least whatever little experience i have i can tell that, you make a move when you feel that you found a right person.
For girls, the goal is simple, they want a guy who can take care of them properly and give them a lot of attention. He should be caring, loving, adorable and should earn well.
Guys, on the other hand, have fewer but tricky requirements. They want good looking, smart, with highest understanding quotient, caring, loving and obey his orders kind of girl.
Hence finding love is not so simple. Most difficult is finding the right person, who gives as much love to you, as you give it him/her.
Friendly Advice : Don't judge a book by its cover. Take some time and then judge the person.
Comments Welcome.
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Expectations !
Expectations are everywhere !
Right from the day you are conceived till the day you die, people around you expect so many things from you. As human nature goes, however hard it tries, but the Expectations never stop. I can't tell you the reason but its a human nature.
Interestingly expectations are based on relationships. Expectations generally arises in close relationships. Are expectations good or bad for any relationship ?
I feel expectations are good as long as they are valid and bad if they are blown out of proportion.
The simple idea about Expectation is when you are close to someone, you tend to Expect so many things from that person. The point here is other person should understand and respect it for the same. But lets say if you expect something and you dont get the desired result, you feel uneasy. This might lead to misunderstandings. But with better understanding, expectations can lead to more stronger relationship than it was before.
The other extreme of expectations are more dangerous in which you can't control expectations. Every now and then, for every small matter, one generally tend to expect something from other. This situation is more pathetic than first case.
The ideal solution is talking it out and openly discussing the issue. Also, if you feel you were wrong in expecting something, just accpet your fault and move on. If you take it on ego, things might not work out so well.
I always think that there is only one life given to us and hence make most use of your time. No one has seen tomorrow.
Always live happily and let others live happily.
Right from the day you are conceived till the day you die, people around you expect so many things from you. As human nature goes, however hard it tries, but the Expectations never stop. I can't tell you the reason but its a human nature.
Interestingly expectations are based on relationships. Expectations generally arises in close relationships. Are expectations good or bad for any relationship ?
I feel expectations are good as long as they are valid and bad if they are blown out of proportion.
The simple idea about Expectation is when you are close to someone, you tend to Expect so many things from that person. The point here is other person should understand and respect it for the same. But lets say if you expect something and you dont get the desired result, you feel uneasy. This might lead to misunderstandings. But with better understanding, expectations can lead to more stronger relationship than it was before.
The other extreme of expectations are more dangerous in which you can't control expectations. Every now and then, for every small matter, one generally tend to expect something from other. This situation is more pathetic than first case.
The ideal solution is talking it out and openly discussing the issue. Also, if you feel you were wrong in expecting something, just accpet your fault and move on. If you take it on ego, things might not work out so well.
I always think that there is only one life given to us and hence make most use of your time. No one has seen tomorrow.
Always live happily and let others live happily.
Monday, May 05, 2008
The change in ME....
How often have you observed the change in you or closely seen u changing?
I am not saying physically but mentally or thoughtwise.
Everyone notices that they have become matured as they come out of teen. This is a normal process and everyone feels it. Maybe most of us feel it but still it takes time to change.
But there are certain incidents in everyone's life which are worth mentioning.
I have couple of them to share with. Joining my undergraduate college was the first change which i feel changed me a lot. I was entirely a different person when i entered that place and came out as another person. I was an introvert before before and when i joined this college i became more open and talkative. I was never so before, but maybe independence and freedom made me feel better. I learnt a lot of things being in that place and with so many people. Especially hostel life in itself is a big teacher and teaches you so many things.
The next big change i felt was falling in love. It is great. I never thought love can be such a strong emotion. But when you are in love, you feel you are the luckiest person alive. You feel you have the world with you and you feel amazing. I could only have this feeling coz of her and i thank her for that.
In few of my last posts i have mentioned about having a girl and finally i made it.
More on my love life will follow soon.
Things which i learnt from those 2 incidents are, patience, courage, confidence, self belief, trusting someone etc .
I guess you also have a lot to share.... :)
I am not saying physically but mentally or thoughtwise.
Everyone notices that they have become matured as they come out of teen. This is a normal process and everyone feels it. Maybe most of us feel it but still it takes time to change.
But there are certain incidents in everyone's life which are worth mentioning.
I have couple of them to share with. Joining my undergraduate college was the first change which i feel changed me a lot. I was entirely a different person when i entered that place and came out as another person. I was an introvert before before and when i joined this college i became more open and talkative. I was never so before, but maybe independence and freedom made me feel better. I learnt a lot of things being in that place and with so many people. Especially hostel life in itself is a big teacher and teaches you so many things.
The next big change i felt was falling in love. It is great. I never thought love can be such a strong emotion. But when you are in love, you feel you are the luckiest person alive. You feel you have the world with you and you feel amazing. I could only have this feeling coz of her and i thank her for that.
In few of my last posts i have mentioned about having a girl and finally i made it.
More on my love life will follow soon.
Things which i learnt from those 2 incidents are, patience, courage, confidence, self belief, trusting someone etc .
I guess you also have a lot to share.... :)
Saturday, September 15, 2007
God's trilogy - Part-I
This might be most controversial blog till now. But let me go ahead with it. Its all personal feelings so please forgive me :).
There are so many factors that contributes to your belief in God. The very first being childhood. A child is told by his parents and elders that, there is a supernatural power called as God, that saves human beings from everything , he is the king of goodness, peace and simplicity. Every child tend to believe or follow what our parents and elders are following as a tradition since thousands of year. No child questions the existence of god and he continues to grow old with belief in God. And the same child imposes the same thing to his children and so on. So its a blind belief that's propagating through years and years.
Second most important reason is the social environment. Its like group of people celebrating certain festival and naturally you want to be a part of it. For becoming part of social society belief in God is necessary else people will question you. That's a weird thought but in India everything is possible.
I think more than believing in God people should try and believe in themselves. There have been instances where people pray to God before writing any exam. I don't understand the point, its you who has to write the exam and not God, then why unnecessarily go and pray God that "please help me. My exam should go well". I had a colleague in office who used to pray God before starting his work for the day and again a prayer before leaving. That was most bullshit thing i ever saw someone doing. God wont come and code for you.
I am not asking you to believe in God but don't drag God into some small things like this. It makes you more stupid.
This is Part-I of the God's trilogy. I will resume Part-II soon.
There are so many factors that contributes to your belief in God. The very first being childhood. A child is told by his parents and elders that, there is a supernatural power called as God, that saves human beings from everything , he is the king of goodness, peace and simplicity. Every child tend to believe or follow what our parents and elders are following as a tradition since thousands of year. No child questions the existence of god and he continues to grow old with belief in God. And the same child imposes the same thing to his children and so on. So its a blind belief that's propagating through years and years.
Second most important reason is the social environment. Its like group of people celebrating certain festival and naturally you want to be a part of it. For becoming part of social society belief in God is necessary else people will question you. That's a weird thought but in India everything is possible.
I think more than believing in God people should try and believe in themselves. There have been instances where people pray to God before writing any exam. I don't understand the point, its you who has to write the exam and not God, then why unnecessarily go and pray God that "please help me. My exam should go well". I had a colleague in office who used to pray God before starting his work for the day and again a prayer before leaving. That was most bullshit thing i ever saw someone doing. God wont come and code for you.
I am not asking you to believe in God but don't drag God into some small things like this. It makes you more stupid.
This is Part-I of the God's trilogy. I will resume Part-II soon.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Taking Risks and Career
Everyone around me wants to be a better human being and wants plenty of success in life. I believe both the terms are relative. The relativity of being successful is directly proportional to the amount of risk a person takes. There are so many examples in history which tells you how a child born in a small village, in a poor family became successful in life. The best example i could give here is of Abraham Lincoln,who he is my ideal. I have so many ideals and hero's but there is so much to learn from Lincoln's life. While working on a boat which used to carry goods to other parts of the country, he came to know of slavery. He decided to fight against it and one day became president of United States. Sometimes I think Why can't I become the president of India? But as rightly said, success doesn't come easily. We need to take risks to achieve the thing that we always wanted to do. We need to work hard and and work in right direction. But how will one know that he/she is working in right direction? Maybe it comes with intuition or from retrospecting yourself. I am not a philosopher of some sort but that's the only way. Everyone will tell you what to do but they wouldn't tell you how to do it. You have to take risk, introspect yourself and execute your plan.
Last few days i have been thinking too much about my future and came to conclusion that life is one complex maze and its difficult to find an answer about future. I sometimes think why don't i start a grocery shop or something, than doing this job? A change is always welcome in life. But doing better in current job is more challenging. We need to take more risks to earn a happy life ahead.
Last few days i have been thinking too much about my future and came to conclusion that life is one complex maze and its difficult to find an answer about future. I sometimes think why don't i start a grocery shop or something, than doing this job? A change is always welcome in life. But doing better in current job is more challenging. We need to take more risks to earn a happy life ahead.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Independece day
In most of the newspapers, today's headline is"India turned 60". I was shocked to read the headline itself. Though i respect India's freedom from the British rule, but still we Indians haven't learnt the lesson,which we should have learnt. I don't want to go back to history and find out what caused India to fall for East India company and then let them rule by Britishers for more than 150 years. We talk about our culture, our heritage which is few thousands years old and still we say India turned 60 ?
Now some jokes time. One of my friends asked me yesterday about what i am going to do for ID. I was really surprised by the sudden question. Frankly i wanted to tell her that I would watch RDB and then get drunk and kill few politicians. I guess that's not a bad way of celebrating ID than going to some flag hosting and listen to the same old stories about all those freedom fighters. Don't get me wrong but I have full respect for freedom fighters. I am sure if i would have born 100 years back, I would have been a front running freedom fighter. But not certainly the Gandhi's way, I would have joined BhagatSingh and co. Maybe you and your children would have been reading my name in history books.
I don't want to repeat the same old story about corruption, politicians and blah blah....
I just want everyone to be selfless and be at the their very best in their profession, with full honesty and loyalty. If each individual try to inch towards a better human being, our country might do wonders. I salute to all the people who sacrificed their life for our country. Please don't let them down. Let us wish to make our country proud by making ourselves better.
Love you INDIA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now some jokes time. One of my friends asked me yesterday about what i am going to do for ID. I was really surprised by the sudden question. Frankly i wanted to tell her that I would watch RDB and then get drunk and kill few politicians. I guess that's not a bad way of celebrating ID than going to some flag hosting and listen to the same old stories about all those freedom fighters. Don't get me wrong but I have full respect for freedom fighters. I am sure if i would have born 100 years back, I would have been a front running freedom fighter. But not certainly the Gandhi's way, I would have joined BhagatSingh and co. Maybe you and your children would have been reading my name in history books.
I don't want to repeat the same old story about corruption, politicians and blah blah....
I just want everyone to be selfless and be at the their very best in their profession, with full honesty and loyalty. If each individual try to inch towards a better human being, our country might do wonders. I salute to all the people who sacrificed their life for our country. Please don't let them down. Let us wish to make our country proud by making ourselves better.
"bund bund milne se banta ek dariyan hai,
bund bund sagar hai, warna yeh sagar kya hai,
samzo is paheli ko, bund ho akeli toh, ek bund jaise kuch bhi nahi,
hum auron ko chhodde toh, muh sabse hi modde toh,
tanha rahna jaye dekho hum kahi,
kyon na bane milke hum dhara..... "
Love you INDIA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 10, 2007
Trust or Love....
What is more difficult, trusting someone or loving someone ?
What is more easier, trusting someone or loving someone ?
I am sure you will be having a different opinion than me. I believe more in trust than in love. I feel trust is difficult to establish and maintain, than love is. And hence trust is more valuable than love. Love involves so much other parameters like physical attraction, infactuation, loneliness and ones need to have someone close to share ones feelings. While trust stands on entirely different platform. Trust doesnt need all the above parameters, trust can't be established in one day or two. Trust is bonding between two people who understand each other. Trust is believing in someone else more than yoursef. It takes years to trust someone and to earn someone's trust. Maybe love can be seen as a subset of trust. If you trust someone, implicitely means you love that person. All of us trust our parents and its implicit that we love them as well.
Trust is something which makes you feel safe while love makes you feel insecure. Trust is harder to earn while love isn't. Trust is way of living while love is way of enjoying life.
Maybe you don't agree with my thoughts at all. :)
What is more easier, trusting someone or loving someone ?
I am sure you will be having a different opinion than me. I believe more in trust than in love. I feel trust is difficult to establish and maintain, than love is. And hence trust is more valuable than love. Love involves so much other parameters like physical attraction, infactuation, loneliness and ones need to have someone close to share ones feelings. While trust stands on entirely different platform. Trust doesnt need all the above parameters, trust can't be established in one day or two. Trust is bonding between two people who understand each other. Trust is believing in someone else more than yoursef. It takes years to trust someone and to earn someone's trust. Maybe love can be seen as a subset of trust. If you trust someone, implicitely means you love that person. All of us trust our parents and its implicit that we love them as well.
Trust is something which makes you feel safe while love makes you feel insecure. Trust is harder to earn while love isn't. Trust is way of living while love is way of enjoying life.
Maybe you don't agree with my thoughts at all. :)
Monday, August 06, 2007
Light and Shadow
I got a SMS yesterday which read something like this:
"Career is light and Love is like a shadow, if you try to catch the shadow you will miss the light.
If you ignore the shadow and walk towards the light, the shadow will follow you. So follow the light."
I don't know how true is the above statement. At the first glance i didn't pay much attention to this. But when I re-read the SMS, i felt this statement fits me 100% or maybe more.
I never gave so much serious thought about love or finding anyone for myself as i always concentrated on my career. And when someone asked me about my feelings towards her, i made the biggest mistake by giving a negative answer.
And when i think back about the old days, i feel i lost something very important. I dont know what difference it would have made, excpet for soaring cell phone bills, trips to outstation atleats once a month and keeping my orkut status as commited. Though at some stage you feel like you really require someone to share your feelings but then to be frank, no one can help you when you are in real trouble. Its your inner will and strength that makes you feel better and overcome the difficulties. Girlfriend is still a alien word for me. Hopefully things will change with time. :)
I wish my shadow is still follwing me. :)
"Career is light and Love is like a shadow, if you try to catch the shadow you will miss the light.
If you ignore the shadow and walk towards the light, the shadow will follow you. So follow the light."
I don't know how true is the above statement. At the first glance i didn't pay much attention to this. But when I re-read the SMS, i felt this statement fits me 100% or maybe more.
I never gave so much serious thought about love or finding anyone for myself as i always concentrated on my career. And when someone asked me about my feelings towards her, i made the biggest mistake by giving a negative answer.
And when i think back about the old days, i feel i lost something very important. I dont know what difference it would have made, excpet for soaring cell phone bills, trips to outstation atleats once a month and keeping my orkut status as commited. Though at some stage you feel like you really require someone to share your feelings but then to be frank, no one can help you when you are in real trouble. Its your inner will and strength that makes you feel better and overcome the difficulties. Girlfriend is still a alien word for me. Hopefully things will change with time. :)
I wish my shadow is still follwing me. :)
Friday, August 03, 2007
future prediction ??
Future is such a mysterious but yet an important word for all of us. I always find myself in a maze when i try to think about my future.
Some of the possibilities where i can land in next 20 years:
1) This is the most likely and honest answer, i will be working for a software company provided the software market still remains with india. But i doubt so.
2) Maybe, if i execute my plans successfully, i will be with some major giant company and doing good in all areas.
3) If i listen to what my heart says, I might be teaching in some school. Maybe 25 years down the line, good teachers will have more value that a engineer.
4)Finally, the truth, i dont wanna say but let me put it in front of the whole world. I am really interested in doing social work. Probably i will end up helping the poor people. Thats my dream.
Where you want to see yourself after 20 years?
Some of the possibilities where i can land in next 20 years:
1) This is the most likely and honest answer, i will be working for a software company provided the software market still remains with india. But i doubt so.
2) Maybe, if i execute my plans successfully, i will be with some major giant company and doing good in all areas.
3) If i listen to what my heart says, I might be teaching in some school. Maybe 25 years down the line, good teachers will have more value that a engineer.
4)Finally, the truth, i dont wanna say but let me put it in front of the whole world. I am really interested in doing social work. Probably i will end up helping the poor people. Thats my dream.
Where you want to see yourself after 20 years?
Monday, July 30, 2007
My Dream Girl
I hope she (the girl in my dreams) visits this blog some day.
Though computer came with so much of virtual stuff, but my virtual world is entirely different.
The girl, who is constantly nagging me at the moment, is probably the most beautiful girl around.
More close i go more prettier she looks. I didn't measure the distance between us last time sat next to her. But it was really close, probably not in meters but definitely in centimeters.
Her curly hairs reminds me of the noodles i eat on the day when my cook doesn't come to work, but i like those curls. I always loved and admired people with curly hairs and she ain't no exception.
She has the best smile, her one smile makes my day. Though i had been unsuccessful in making her laugh with my witty humor, instead she grinned at me, maybe thinking what a stupid guy ! But whatever, I know, she would love me some day or the other.
You know what I like most about her is the way she dresses up. Sometimes she looks like a pigeon, sometimes tomato, sometimes flag of Italy and i can go on. She has variety in what she wears and what suits her. Probably she might take up fashion designing if she doesn't go up the ladder in her current job.
Finally she has the perfect lips. I don't want to write anything here as i haven't experienced them yet. Even if I write you wouldn't believe I actually kissed her.
The dream girl should better remain dream girl or else i will be beaten till someone make India's map with my face.
Have fun guys. Go and do some better things than reading this bullshit.
Though computer came with so much of virtual stuff, but my virtual world is entirely different.
The girl, who is constantly nagging me at the moment, is probably the most beautiful girl around.
More close i go more prettier she looks. I didn't measure the distance between us last time sat next to her. But it was really close, probably not in meters but definitely in centimeters.
Her curly hairs reminds me of the noodles i eat on the day when my cook doesn't come to work, but i like those curls. I always loved and admired people with curly hairs and she ain't no exception.
She has the best smile, her one smile makes my day. Though i had been unsuccessful in making her laugh with my witty humor, instead she grinned at me, maybe thinking what a stupid guy ! But whatever, I know, she would love me some day or the other.
You know what I like most about her is the way she dresses up. Sometimes she looks like a pigeon, sometimes tomato, sometimes flag of Italy and i can go on. She has variety in what she wears and what suits her. Probably she might take up fashion designing if she doesn't go up the ladder in her current job.
Finally she has the perfect lips. I don't want to write anything here as i haven't experienced them yet. Even if I write you wouldn't believe I actually kissed her.
The dream girl should better remain dream girl or else i will be beaten till someone make India's map with my face.
Have fun guys. Go and do some better things than reading this bullshit.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows
Finally Hallows came and as expected set yet another world record for selling maximum number of copies in a day. Potter mania is all around and even i plunged into the flowing river to wash my hands off the much awaited 7th book.
This blog is mainly about my views about the book so no offense made :) . I was little late to grab the book. Instead of many fans getting it at 6am in morning i got it at 8pm but the same day.
When i finished the book on Monday eve I was kind of satisfied but there wasn't the thing, which i had expected, would have occurred after finishing the book. Everything went as predicted and only thing i felt sorry was for Fred's death.
To be frank, overall, I didn't like the book much. The main reason for that was the description of Voldemort and other death eaters. It was such a one sided battle. Harry gets almost everything correct whereas Voldermort sucks at everything. I felt voldemorts description were really pathetic. After being described the same man in 6th book with such high regards and with such a precision, somehow i felt the same thing lacking in book 7.
Voldemort never felt anything when his horcruxes were destroyed by people. The horcruxes were more of stupid things which can be destroyed with some funky stuff. voldemort never felt the pain when horcruxes suppose to be attached to his soul because his strength depends upon the horcruxes. Malfoy and other death eaters seemed to be dumber than voldemort. It was so unfair for a writer like JKR to come up with something like this.
I maybe little harsh here, but after reading Harry Potter you really feel the closeness with the characters. I liked the ending but it could have been better, it was like some bollywood movie for me, where Hero doesn't even get a single bullet out of 1000 fired at him. And villain keeps on doing same mistake all again.
Hallows was just ok for me. Wish it could have been better.
This blog is mainly about my views about the book so no offense made :) . I was little late to grab the book. Instead of many fans getting it at 6am in morning i got it at 8pm but the same day.
When i finished the book on Monday eve I was kind of satisfied but there wasn't the thing, which i had expected, would have occurred after finishing the book. Everything went as predicted and only thing i felt sorry was for Fred's death.
To be frank, overall, I didn't like the book much. The main reason for that was the description of Voldemort and other death eaters. It was such a one sided battle. Harry gets almost everything correct whereas Voldermort sucks at everything. I felt voldemorts description were really pathetic. After being described the same man in 6th book with such high regards and with such a precision, somehow i felt the same thing lacking in book 7.
Voldemort never felt anything when his horcruxes were destroyed by people. The horcruxes were more of stupid things which can be destroyed with some funky stuff. voldemort never felt the pain when horcruxes suppose to be attached to his soul because his strength depends upon the horcruxes. Malfoy and other death eaters seemed to be dumber than voldemort. It was so unfair for a writer like JKR to come up with something like this.
I maybe little harsh here, but after reading Harry Potter you really feel the closeness with the characters. I liked the ending but it could have been better, it was like some bollywood movie for me, where Hero doesn't even get a single bullet out of 1000 fired at him. And villain keeps on doing same mistake all again.
Hallows was just ok for me. Wish it could have been better.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
The Black Hole....
It was 3am and i got up...
It was dark, pitch dark. I couldn't open my eyes and when I opened I was scared.
For the moment I thought I am in wrong place. I could see few familiar things around but when i wanted to touch them they went hazy. I got scared, really scared. I didn't know what to do, whom to call. I tried calling few names, but they just kept smiling towards me from distance. I went pale, I wanted to scream, I wanted to jump out of it. I don't know whether it was my mind visualizing a dream or an actual dream.
I felt water drops on my cheeks. Later found out that they were my own tear drops.
I didn't know why i was crying, I didn't know why it was so much dark,I couldn't figure out why my friends couldn't took me out of that shit.
I am still trying to find the answer.
It still 3am here....
It was dark, pitch dark. I couldn't open my eyes and when I opened I was scared.
For the moment I thought I am in wrong place. I could see few familiar things around but when i wanted to touch them they went hazy. I got scared, really scared. I didn't know what to do, whom to call. I tried calling few names, but they just kept smiling towards me from distance. I went pale, I wanted to scream, I wanted to jump out of it. I don't know whether it was my mind visualizing a dream or an actual dream.
I felt water drops on my cheeks. Later found out that they were my own tear drops.
I didn't know why i was crying, I didn't know why it was so much dark,I couldn't figure out why my friends couldn't took me out of that shit.
I am still trying to find the answer.
It still 3am here....
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
The Train Journey
I like travelling a lot and specially by train.
Last time i had a memorable train journey. I was travelling to Nagpur from Bangalore in sleeper coach.
An elderly couple was sitting next to me in my compartment. I was surprsied to be see overly enthu old couple.
First thing in the morning they did was, got 2 cups of tea and criticized it coz they thought it was tea.
The elderly couple were cursing the guy who served tea to them and they warned us not to take anything from that guy.
Next it was turn of a soup vendor. This was too good. as the guy came near our compartment the elderly couple staretd shouting "kyon jaan le rahe ho logo ki,
bathrrom ke pani se soup bana kar pila rahe ho". The guy went cold and coudnt speak any word as everyone was looking at him. He didn't even stop at our compartment
and went to next.Couple told us not to have lunch from train coz they use low quality material to make food and etables.
After lunch another guy came with buttermilk, this time couple thought of having buttermilk as they thought it will cool them in the heat outside.
Graany started telling that it wasnt buttermilk at all, it was like water and these guys are looting people by selling water as buttermilk. Again the complaining continued, saying people
are selling water in the name of buttermilk and the whole railways food is a pathetic.
I dont know what the couple tried to convey but somehow the catering system should be looked into. Especially in the long distance train wherein number
of stops are less poeple doesnt have any other choice but to take food from pantry. Atleats 70% poeple take eatables from pantry. Probably food should be
of better quality and customers should be satisfied with what is being served.
The old couple were irritating coz i hate people who crib a lot but they had a point. I somehow saw a valid point in their cribbing.
Hopefully their shouts will fall on the concern ears.
Last time i had a memorable train journey. I was travelling to Nagpur from Bangalore in sleeper coach.
An elderly couple was sitting next to me in my compartment. I was surprsied to be see overly enthu old couple.
First thing in the morning they did was, got 2 cups of tea and criticized it coz they thought it was tea.
The elderly couple were cursing the guy who served tea to them and they warned us not to take anything from that guy.
Next it was turn of a soup vendor. This was too good. as the guy came near our compartment the elderly couple staretd shouting "kyon jaan le rahe ho logo ki,
bathrrom ke pani se soup bana kar pila rahe ho". The guy went cold and coudnt speak any word as everyone was looking at him. He didn't even stop at our compartment
and went to next.Couple told us not to have lunch from train coz they use low quality material to make food and etables.
After lunch another guy came with buttermilk, this time couple thought of having buttermilk as they thought it will cool them in the heat outside.
Graany started telling that it wasnt buttermilk at all, it was like water and these guys are looting people by selling water as buttermilk. Again the complaining continued, saying people
are selling water in the name of buttermilk and the whole railways food is a pathetic.
I dont know what the couple tried to convey but somehow the catering system should be looked into. Especially in the long distance train wherein number
of stops are less poeple doesnt have any other choice but to take food from pantry. Atleats 70% poeple take eatables from pantry. Probably food should be
of better quality and customers should be satisfied with what is being served.
The old couple were irritating coz i hate people who crib a lot but they had a point. I somehow saw a valid point in their cribbing.
Hopefully their shouts will fall on the concern ears.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
The Indian Traffic...
I was having a conversation with one of my friend the other day and he asked me to meet near MG Road. I said I will take 45 minutes. He was surprised and asked how far is my home from MG, i told its around 7 kms. He then realized that I calculated the approx time coz of the wild traffic here in Bangalore. So as a good citizen i told him the approx time and reached MG in 40 mins.That was an achievement in itself as on Saturday eve it takes relatively more time that 40 mins to reach MG.
Anyways success doesn't come as it is and hard work is followed by success. And my achievement too had a kind of success. I should say success in terms of reaching my destination well before time (trust me 5 min is a lot of time).
The hard work i did was making my way through the pool of other vehicles. Thats an altogether skill in itself. You have too keep your eye on moving vehicles from the opposite side, from your right and left side to see someone isn't overtaking you and the vehicle ahead of you. You are concentrating on 4 different directions at a given time. Good that we don't have vehicles flying above you, otherwise people would have hired specialist like me to drive them to office.Thats a tough job. Human mind have to be sharp enough to guess all the possible reflexes that he can perform in next few milliseconds. You never know which vehicle is going to take a sudden left or right turn, or there might be a vehicle coming from front and wants to take a U turn.
So that was it, what i call it as a skill driving and which has its own pros and cons. But as far as the traffic goes i believe its the responsibility of both government and the citizens to make it a smooth ride back home. I think most of the city roads were built some 50 years back without considering the expansion. Take Bangalore for example, in last ten years the population increased by huge amount but the roads were the same. People are using more personal vehicles than public transport. First of all the public transport sucks except for metros like Mumbai, Delhi and Chennai.
Even if the road is 4 lane but still we face a huge traffic because of poor traffic management.
Even if the infrastructure in place people like me who want to reach office in half an hour, with their creative mind, try all possible routes. I overtake from left, in case of heavy traffic i go to pavement of road, i drove footpath as well. I might be reach ten minutes earlier but what i don't see is the civic sense. Sometimes people really get uneasy and try something different things to reach destination in minimum possible time. I bet most of the bike accidents happen coz of left overtaking.
The effect is cumulative. We all say traffic is poorly managed and infrastructure sucks and on the other hand we are the ones who break all the traffic rules and make our own. The message is loud and clear "if u don't change then we too wont change". But as all the movies come to an end. Probably there will be a day when i see all the vehicles driving in a lane and following all the traffic rule. Its an individual's initiative and difficult to implement.
I salute all the guys who drive on these Indian roads.
Anyways success doesn't come as it is and hard work is followed by success. And my achievement too had a kind of success. I should say success in terms of reaching my destination well before time (trust me 5 min is a lot of time).
The hard work i did was making my way through the pool of other vehicles. Thats an altogether skill in itself. You have too keep your eye on moving vehicles from the opposite side, from your right and left side to see someone isn't overtaking you and the vehicle ahead of you. You are concentrating on 4 different directions at a given time. Good that we don't have vehicles flying above you, otherwise people would have hired specialist like me to drive them to office.Thats a tough job. Human mind have to be sharp enough to guess all the possible reflexes that he can perform in next few milliseconds. You never know which vehicle is going to take a sudden left or right turn, or there might be a vehicle coming from front and wants to take a U turn.
So that was it, what i call it as a skill driving and which has its own pros and cons. But as far as the traffic goes i believe its the responsibility of both government and the citizens to make it a smooth ride back home. I think most of the city roads were built some 50 years back without considering the expansion. Take Bangalore for example, in last ten years the population increased by huge amount but the roads were the same. People are using more personal vehicles than public transport. First of all the public transport sucks except for metros like Mumbai, Delhi and Chennai.
Even if the road is 4 lane but still we face a huge traffic because of poor traffic management.
Even if the infrastructure in place people like me who want to reach office in half an hour, with their creative mind, try all possible routes. I overtake from left, in case of heavy traffic i go to pavement of road, i drove footpath as well. I might be reach ten minutes earlier but what i don't see is the civic sense. Sometimes people really get uneasy and try something different things to reach destination in minimum possible time. I bet most of the bike accidents happen coz of left overtaking.
The effect is cumulative. We all say traffic is poorly managed and infrastructure sucks and on the other hand we are the ones who break all the traffic rules and make our own. The message is loud and clear "if u don't change then we too wont change". But as all the movies come to an end. Probably there will be a day when i see all the vehicles driving in a lane and following all the traffic rule. Its an individual's initiative and difficult to implement.
I salute all the guys who drive on these Indian roads.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
M'lore Day 3
It was noon when we got up and getting up late was obivious. We got up ready and straightaway went for lunch at Punjabi Dhabba. It wasnt the old Punjabi Dhabba but more specious this time and wasnt there at its old place. Though the place was new but the food was equally pathetic. Rest of the afternoon we spent in college. College was closed coz of vacation and it had deserted look.
We started revisiting different joints, starting from the tennis court and DC(short form for down cops). SAC (student activity center) was in the most pathetic condition. It was still having the old look and we got the feeling as if no one came here since long. The movie screen was torn at places. This was the most adoring places for me but at looking its condition i got real senti. We carried on to basketball court, swimming pool, CCC (central computer center... called as tripC), Auditorium,dispensary, mech block and then ATB.
We went to the classroom in ATB where we spent a whole year in section B. The classroom is the same but the long benches are nowhere, instead replaced by nice chairs and tables for more comfort. The most important for me was to go into college library but unfortunately it was closed. so i had to make myself happy by just clicking a snap outside it. We spent some time on the lawn and then on the red bench. Red bench was a famous bench where only couples used to sit. I walked on the lawn of the main bulding, i got reminded of my old college days when me and sandi used to walk on the lawn just to get a break from studies. The college main building has been painted with light shed of green. I quite liked it coz it seemed like college got submerged with the greenary around it. We all roamed there around the main building and then went to DC for a juice. We came back to hostels and saw a peacock near the final year block. We went inside the final block and with out doubt this is the only hostel block everyone admires.
After finishing our trip we came back to hotel and packed our stuff. We had to go to M'lore to catch the bus to B'lore. Again i was uncontious by having avomin tablet and slept as soon as the bus started. We reached B'lore at 5 am next day.
This was more of an emotional blog rather than usual travelogue but i can't help it. I put here what i thought and saw. Old places really brings back emotions and this was one of the best examples of it.
We started revisiting different joints, starting from the tennis court and DC(short form for down cops). SAC (student activity center) was in the most pathetic condition. It was still having the old look and we got the feeling as if no one came here since long. The movie screen was torn at places. This was the most adoring places for me but at looking its condition i got real senti. We carried on to basketball court, swimming pool, CCC (central computer center... called as tripC), Auditorium,dispensary, mech block and then ATB.
We went to the classroom in ATB where we spent a whole year in section B. The classroom is the same but the long benches are nowhere, instead replaced by nice chairs and tables for more comfort. The most important for me was to go into college library but unfortunately it was closed. so i had to make myself happy by just clicking a snap outside it. We spent some time on the lawn and then on the red bench. Red bench was a famous bench where only couples used to sit. I walked on the lawn of the main bulding, i got reminded of my old college days when me and sandi used to walk on the lawn just to get a break from studies. The college main building has been painted with light shed of green. I quite liked it coz it seemed like college got submerged with the greenary around it. We all roamed there around the main building and then went to DC for a juice. We came back to hostels and saw a peacock near the final year block. We went inside the final block and with out doubt this is the only hostel block everyone admires.
After finishing our trip we came back to hotel and packed our stuff. We had to go to M'lore to catch the bus to B'lore. Again i was uncontious by having avomin tablet and slept as soon as the bus started. We reached B'lore at 5 am next day.
This was more of an emotional blog rather than usual travelogue but i can't help it. I put here what i thought and saw. Old places really brings back emotions and this was one of the best examples of it.
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